Mother.

That’s the best women that I ever seen and I think everybody has agree with me. All mother around the world is the best women. Anything will she do just only for his family. Although it must intrust his self.

I always love my mother. And love all mother around the world. And now, I love one mother that always in my office place, to see the condition in this office, the wife of my director. Yes, I love this never surrender’s mother very much.

Almost every story, she always telling to me. I don’t know, maybe it because I has considered to be his daughter. And even the story about the first time she met with the man that now be his husband until about them household she tell to me.

I love this mother so much.

There is too much story from she that I can be it to be my good lesson in my life. She give me the meaning of life. Although in my eyes, she is a woman always don’t care about the condition around she. But in his heart, she care about it. Like me! I found the person that can be my leader. That like me, but absolutely not full of his is like me.

But I’m happy meet with the person like she.

Thanks again Ya Allah.

His name is Akbar Nadzary Muhammad. He was born in Bandung, September 19, 1990. I was meet with him when we in elementary school. He is a student that come from the another school. And in that time, I was not too close with him. But I always remember. And I don’t why.

After we graduate in elementary school until we are in Senior Hugh School, we never have a contact of each others. He don’t know where is me. And so am I. Until on June there is a elementary school reunion. And in that place that I meet him again.

The first time after we never meet in 6 years there is nothing deferent. We just like the people who meet with them old friends. Telling about our story in our Senior High School, proud of each Senior High School, and anything something stupid that we made in Elementary School. Same as the other. But I never think, there will be a something.

After know who am he until now. He give me a lot of change of my life. And of course the best change. He make me be a better person. Much of memories that we have been together would never lost in my memories.

And now I know, he is a best person that a lot of means in my life and I need him very much.

I’m happy was got a person like him in my life. He bring me. He bring me to be a person that more good. But, my egoistic destroy it all. How I never care about him. When I need him, he always in there. But when he need me, I never in there. I closed my eyes. I never think about his truly life

I regret.

But time was never come back. Once again, the time would never come back. And finally I can be never a person that he need. But I still say thanks to God, Allah give me a person that give me a lot of means of my life. Although maybe just only until in this time. But he still in my pray list and would be in my memories forever.

Do you know how do you feel when you know the only one person that you loved is hate you . ?

What must you do in that time can’t you imagine that .

You just thinking shortly and negatively .

So, anything that you think only the darkness and deathly.

Although behind that’s all there is a little light still always be with you wherever you go.

That’s your God.

And that’s what I feel know.

When I know the only one person that I loved is hate me.

I just only say tasbih, istigfar, tahmid.

There’s nothing can I do except that.

Because I know. And I believe. And I sure.

God always be with me wherever I am . Wherever I go.

God always hear me.

And God is my true love.

Thank Allah.

I was go to my office from morning to do my daily activities, work. Actually my friends invite me to go to one of use houses to celebrate this New Year. But I was confused, if I go with them, who will keep this office? So, I ask my superiors and he said just closed this office at 9pm o’clock later. So, I was still in this office until 9pm. And accidentally too, my superiors want to accompany me to the houses which it the New Year party would celebrated.

9pm o’clock. And according to the promise, my superiors come to the office and pick me to the house. But, he said, he want to go to his friend before he pick me at the house. So, I waiting here.

I just can see the traffic is so busy. Car and motorcycle is in everywhere. With the trumpet sound everywhere and fix it with the car horn sound or motorcycle horn sound and fix it again with the sound of many people. It’s a very busy night.

Half 10pm o’clock, my superiors come to me. But he still bring me to his friends house. He said that the topic of they talk has not finished. So, I waiting him again.

And myself still don’t know are my friends still in there or not. Accidential that house is not far from my house. And why we choose that house? Because the owner of the house has birth at Dec 29^th. So, I try to send a short message to one of my friends. (cheat a pulse! Sorry).

10 pm. Finally we go. But I still confused, I go to my house or I go to me friends house. Because I afraid if I go to my friend house, the party has done. But, I still go. And when I almost closer with my house, there is a short message was come to my friend. And she said, they still in there, and they has waiting for me! Ha..Thank You.

So, I go to my friends house. And absolutely my superiors pick me to this house. And when I has arrived in there, we have greet each other and they greet each other too to my superiors.

Ha.. My miss feeling to them eventually can I get today. I love them. I love all my best friend that I called family. And in time ago I miss them so much! Because, every events that they invited me, I always can’t go there because I was busy in my work. Ha.. I love them!

My superiors has not with us to celebrate the New Year party. He choose go home. And I still unburden with all my friend.

In this New Year party, we choose to burn some of fish and some of corn. And many stupid behavior that always they do and always can make me laugh. 12pm. There is a lot of fireworks in the sky with the beautifully shine colors. A friends come to me.

“Jealously. There is much of couple in behind” she said.

“Haha. Whatever what they want to do. We can feel happy too although we are not with our boyfriend or something like that. We happy with our family“ I said.

That’s right. I still feel happy with them. Although, the person who that I truly loved has not beside me in that New Year party. But I still have my family.

After look the fireworks, we began to eat our fish at 2 am. After that, we go to Rajawali’s House – our headquarters – for stay. And I just can go sleep at 4am and wake up at 5am. And now, I still want to go sleep again. And the color of skin down my eyes looks black. But I must go work again. And must have a new spirit in this New Year.

Ganbatte!!

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Sincerely Yours,

Admin.